Honestly I didn’t want to blog. I feared my usage of the english language was substandard at best. But my daughter thought it would be a good idea for me to journal and started me on my way.
I’ve since learned that like in visual art, your talent is your talent. If it is authentic it will represent you. When I read my posts it reads like the thoughts in my head so it’s acceptable. I no longer worry about past tense or present tense, all the punctuation errors I learned in school and definitely not the grammar. It might be wrong but I only worry about the point of view. It is sincere?Is it humble? Are you hearing what I would have said if I was talking to you directly? Of course I do go back and try to correct my verbiage which might have been pointless because after I post I see yet another mistake I missed.
Like an original painting that is in process that everyone thinks is ugly you finished it for the one person who will see it’s beauty. The person who wants to own it. I have something to say to the universe and only a few will get it and it is okay. Tomorrow is another day I might reach another person.
God just wants us to keep trying and that’s what I’m going to do substandard and all. Besides that, it brings me joy.
In today’s time who would have thought you could be in a place with no internet connection? In the inner city no doubt! I’m living the dream traveling on a road trip but no matter what state of the art equipment you possess it means nothing without a signal. I’ve used 30gb of data in a week whereas that’s the usual plan for a household of 5 for a month and usually rolling over data. So let me be truthful I used 38gb in a week.
It now comes down to two choices.
I could stay dormant in my home with unlimited wifi and reach out to the world and beyond from my office chair, or
I could go out into the world and use up the data reaching out to people telling them about my observations and experiences.
Inside is like a silent prayer between me and my God where I patiently wait for a reply. Outside I’m boldly praying to God and the universe and even better he’s loudly answering my prayers with clarity.
Even in this heat this is a “no brainer.” I am going outside right after I upgrade my plan to unlimited data. 😊
There’s so much to see, so much to do. Do it with wonder.
Edited in sincerity to the Quest of the Pineapple.
We were starting on another journey you and I. The dynamic duo, we called ourselves. Preparing for another caper. We were magical together. Polar opposites. My strengths were your weaknesses. Your strength were my weaknesses. Together we were one person. No one could touch us. No one could go around us. Impenetrable!
Somewhere we made a wrong turn. A decision we would have to face dire consequences for. Somewhere in our quest for greatness we forgot how we came to be so powerful. We started with just love. Love that kept us talking all night about our dreams and aspirations. Love that made us silly and adventurous. We had found each other. Our soulmate. We thought we did it ourselves and the powers that be excused our innocence. Young love can be foolish.
He put us together against all odds. The things we had in common in the beginning against the things years later we still couldn’t understand how we ended up together. Even with our differences, he put us together for a purpose for the unbelieving spouse will sanctify the other. But somewhere we made a wrong turn and we misjudged the covenant we agreed to when we were united. We were moving in our own power, depleting our resources. All the while the superpowers kept feeding us granting permission for us to keep fighting evil. So stupid we didn’t show enough gratitude, enough love, enough praise that the evil doers came in through the weakest links of our shield. Our faith in God. We didn’t even notice when the smoke bomb was thrown in. We kept touching it not knowing what it was only knowing that we seeing thing different than before. We just kept up the superhero appearance before man. Thinking we were battered but not beaten and we began to believe we did not need all the strength of the superpower. We were doing it, the dynamic duo. We had it all in our own right.
The enemy penetrated our camp spreading their venom all around. We breathed it in and it worked against us. We were battling a different kind of crime. No longer were we fighting the enemy we were fighting against ourselves. We became so weak in the mind, body and spirit we didn’t even think to call to the higher power. We tried to save each other and exhausted what power we had left. Loves make you want to try even when you know you can not win by yourselves. Thankfully the higher powers came to our rescue although they could only save one of us. I’m not sure which one of us was saved. All I know for sure is I was left to warn the heroes that replace us.
Turn back and plan your capers together and use your powers for good. Remember even after the crowd praises your accomplishments, you are not operating as the dynamic duo. You have the God Squad, the Holy Trinity ~ The Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost.
My sidekick of 30 years has hung up his cape but I have comfort that I am not alone. I’ve tightened my belt and picked up my shield. Me and The Squad are still on the quest.
Call on Jesus. He will answer. It is not too late to save each other. It is not too late to save yourself.
2 You’re blessed when you stay on course, walking steadily on the road revealed by GOD. You’re blessed when you follow his directions, doing your best to find him. That’s right—you don’t go off on your own; you walk straight along the road he set. You, GOD, prescribed the right way to live; now you expect us to live it. Oh, that my steps might be steady, keeping to the course you set; Then I’d never have any regrets in comparing my life with your counsel. I thank you for speaking straight from your heart; I learn the pattern of your righteous ways. I’m going to do what you tell me to do; don’t ever walk off and leave me. (Psalm 119:2 MSG)
i think I have to go back a moment and explain my journey a little so you can better understand me.
I have Had a great life to this point even though it was marked with hidden personality traits that I did not understand how they were using me. Becoming a four o’clock resulted from the experiences of my life some of which happened even before I was born. These traits I had no control of how they happened. I could only change how I responded to them. Over the next few weeks I am going to point them out so maybe you too can overcome your bondage. So that you know what I’m talking about here, I’m talking about karma. So stay tune for that……
but today I want to talk about the Spirit of Joy. My quest to the pineapple. My quest to receive the crown of eternal life.
Yesterday the Mundy crew went to Six Flags in Atlanta, Georgia. I was reflecting on the past in a moment of time when I should have been in the present. I was covered in regret. I just started to smile and I could feel the Spirit lifting up in me. The Spirit of pure joy. I was remembering this scripture.
“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy –think about such things.” Philippians 4:8
I received it and started to get light. The power of the mind and heart can change any situation when you walk with Jesus. He and the Holy Ghost will comfort you. God did not mean for me to be this wildflower.
I plucked that emotion and pulled it right out of the atmosphere. Point, pluck and pull!
The quest to the pineapple is by plucking one wildflower at a time.
Some days ago I woke up feeling like my normal self. It was short lived but nice just the same. I have been missing in action for quite some time. Invisible to the world. Being a caregiver took up so much of my time (no complaints) and the felt the care of I giving became insufficient for my husband went on to glory days. Just like a plant I was continually watering and accidently drowned. It felt as if my good intentions went to waste.
Shortly after I awoke I realized it was my husband’s birthday tomorrow and I needed to get flowers to put on his gravesite. Plastic flowers because people will not let the real one stay in place. Who robs a departed soul? People who have no soul I assume. Then I began to cry, sob uncontrollably because he should not be there. Not in the ground and definitely not in that location. He should still be here with me and our family. I made the wrong decision. A decision I can not change. A decision that was only mines to make. A decision I did not have time to fully consider. Ultimately a decision I had no control over. God had all the control over the ultimate situation. But I still felt that in some way I was to blame.
So today here I sit, on the ledge, writing about how I feel. It is not my first letter. I’ve written plenty to God, my husband and to myself looking for both questions and answers. I get answers but still I move in and out of acceptance like I change underwear. Everyday is a new reality. So how do I keep getting back to the first day over and over again?
Plain and simple. Doubt.
It does not matter whether it is weakness, fear, feelings of defeat, loneliness, etc… The enemy will use your despair to defeat you where he can.
This is when I started to cry and moan and I prayed to the Holy Spirit to help me and comfort me. Romans 8:26-27 says “the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words we can not express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.
I know it is true because I quickly and quietly get back to the place of acceptance. Over the last few months I have asked the Spirit to quiet my thoughts, help me find peace, and whatever else I consciously and unconsciously asked for and it was given to me. God’s love and concern for me never wavers. He is restoring me back to the path he placed me on some time ago. He tells me I am redeemed. I do not need to be on this ledge for he has a purpose for me. A purpose far beyond my reach. A plan that I have been seeking validating for.
Well Wonderers I am here to tell you God has already validated you. His grace is more than sufficient. Have faith in his promises. Love life, love yourself and be grateful for your family and friends. Speak with kind words and with positivity. What you put out in the universe manifests itself. God only wants what is best for you.
Until we meet again keeping looking for the wonders of life and thanks for perusing.